Diary #5: The One where she had a busy but great week

What a week! Last week, I had a pretty busy week and I barely spent time online and my last personal blog post was a while ago. I had to work more hours at my part-time job which was already pretty exhausting. On top of that, I also had to take care of a 3-month-old kitten because the owners went on a holiday for a week. The kitten had a lot of energy. He killed almost all of my plants, jumped on my laptop a few times and almost destroyed my books. But luck was on my side I think because there wasn’t major damage and plants are resilient. Plants can grow new leaves again.

Those are also the two reasons why I didn’t have a lot of time for my blog and my other social media platforms. I wanted to create content but I came home around 9 pm every single night and I was even too tired to read a book. So instead I decided to take time for myself and take some time off from blogging and social media. Which also felt really great because now I had the time to think about things (while I was entertaining the kitten). I wasn’t checking on my followers or likes. Because to be honest, I can get obsessed with numbers. I love numbers and how you can actually see the results of working on your blog and social media. But if you get obsessed, it is a bad thing. You get too focused on how many likes you get and you get upset if you don’t get enough likes. That is what happens to me a lot. Then I know it is good to take a step back.

And taking a step back also meant I got a lot of inspiration. Because that exactly happens when you are relaxed. Every time I was always looking around me for new inspiration but the truth is that the best inspiration comes to you when you are doing something else and when you are relaxed. You can also say that I’ve learned a few things this week. First of all, I have to take more breaks from everything and I have to relax more often. Not just for the inspiration but also for myself. Because I also noticed how relaxed and how good I was feeling. I was definitely sleeping better and that was great.

The other thing I also learned is that I also have to stop focusing on the numbers and just focus on creating. I know numbers are important in the online world but it is so much better for my mental health not to focus on it too much. Those are the two things I’ve learned this week. I can definitely recommend taking a break from everything when you are overwhelmed and feel stuck in life. Without the distraction, you suddenly realize what is important and what’s not.

It is now Saturday and my busy week is over and I don’t have to take care of the kitten anymore. My life is basically back to normal and I feel pretty excited. November is around the corner and that means it is also almost time for the most beautiful time of the year. The day after Halloween, I am going to decorate for Christmas and I can’t wait for this cosy time. After this short break, I feel like a whole new person. A person who is ready to fight her demons. Last Sunday, I had a panic attack at the supermarket. Not great since it was my first panic attack in a while. Years ago I got panic attacks a few times every single day and that stopped me from doing anything. But this time I didn’t let stop me. I even went to a busy store a few days later and stood in a long line (which was usually a trigger, I guess I am very impatient). I still have to take a few steps but I am getting closer.

Anyway, I also realized that my life is pretty basic and even a little bit boring. I want to spice things up again. I think I could say I was staying in my comfort zone to keep myself safe. I think that was good when I was still recovering from my burn-out and panic attacks. But now it is time to start living again. My astrological sign is Gemini and Gemini’s don’t like routine. I think that is also the reason why I feel a bit stuck sometimes. But I also think it is good to step out of my comfort zone so I can grow as a person. Discover new things I will like or won’t like, meet new people and learn new things.

Because doing the same things every day (wake up, work, watch tv and go back to bed) is pretty boring. I am sure I am not the only one who feels this way. I did one thing that was out of my comfort zone this week. I decided to read ‘horrorstör’ and a few times I had this feeling I had to stop reading that book and read comfy romances but at the same time, it felt great to do something else. And I also liked the book too.

Related: Book review Horrorstör

My head is pretty chaotic right now from all the excitement and all of my plans for my blog and social media. Because I want to inspire other people to live their best life too. We are not made for doing the same thing every single day unless you really like it that way. But we are made to live our best lives and to have fun. We should do something exciting every single day, no matter how small that thing is. Maybe baking something after work or having a great conversation with a good friend will give you the feeling of really living your life. Everyone is different, so I can’t tell you what is the right ingrediënt for you to become happier. You just have to try things and keep the things that feel good to you and stop doing the things that don’t spark joy for you.

Maybe we can go on this journey together. And trust me, even when you are not in a good place right now. You can get better. Maybe tomorrow, maybe in one year. It took me a few years to get in a better place. The most important thing you can do is to listen to your body and listen to what it needs. This can be hard at first because you ignored your intuition for a long time. But keep trying and you get better at it. And hopefully, I can inspire you to pick up the pieces one by one to create a better life for yourself. One thing I’ve learned is not to listen to someone else, society or media. Listen to yourself. You know what is best for you.

This has become a pretty long blog post but I guess I had a lot of inspiration and it feels good writing this blog post. To be honest, I am not sure how often I will post a personal post again. I like to write these but I think I can write my advice in a different style of a blog post, like an informative article. But every now and then it is fun to write these personal posts for you.

For now, I am going to end this post because I have other things to do. I still have to go to the supermarket and I also want to do some other things for my blog and social media platforms.

Have a wonderful day,




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