Getting a burn-out does not sound like fun at all, but somehow I am grateful for it. We all know the bad sides of it. In the beginning I was just tired and later I felt fatigued all the time. I lost a lot of ‘friends’, because I was always too tired to hang out. And yes maybe I have lost a lot of things and at first you can’t see the good in those dark times. But after a while I finally understood why this had to happen, so this blogpost is about why I am grateful for my burn-out.
Know who your true friends are
Friends are there for you when you need them, not only when they need you and in happy times. That is why I am grateful for them, they know exactly what I need, what to say and what not say. They respect that I need more alone time every now and then. So I can focus on myself. And I like that I have less friends now, because less birthday parties and that is perfect for introverts like me. And I know that these friends I still have, really care about me.
Finding out who I really am
I was doing a great job at school, but never thought about what my life would look like when I would graduate. In my second year during my burn-out I started to think about it. At first I just knew that I did not want to wear formal clothes. It makes me feel uncomfortable. And I guess what I was doing was okay, but that was just it. During my internships I just sat at a desk and had meetings. I also had to take the lead and had a lot of responsibilities, which is cool when you are just an intern. But I was standing in the spotlight. I had to give presentations. I did not like to be in the spotlights. Which is funny though, because of my blog I am also in the spotlight. But it feels different and safer. I do almost everything from home and not face to face.
During my burn-out I found out that I am actually a creative person. During my exams I was always drawing. I love to write. One of the reasons why I started blogging. And as a result of my burn-out I grew as a person.Before I did not care about environment, mental health and more. Maybe it was because I was still young and now that I am older I care more about those important things. I don’t know. But I am happy that I do care now.
Do you have/had a burn-out?