Happy birthday to me! Yes, it is my birthday today and it is the second birthday during the pandemic. But I am still going to have fun. When I am writing this (the day before) I still have no plans for my birthday. I just see what is going to happen. Most of the people I know have to work today, so I will spend most of the day alone, but that is okay for me. Otherwise, everything would be so overwhelming after more than a year in lockdown.
This year was a rollercoaster of emotions because of the lockdowns and being bored. The only thing we could do for months was going to the supermarket. The last couple of weeks I’ve been focusing on myself and it has not been easy, but I see this as a work in process kind of thing. And maybe my next year will be the best year every. No, wait! I am going to make it the best year so far!
Before the lockdown started I was still struggling with anxiety and fears but I am trying to break from that. The lockdown made me realize that life is too short for being anxious and overthinking all the time. I should have fun!
So this is my promise to myself to start living and ignore the fears for the next year. And hopefully, next year when I look back I will be proud of myself and happy.