When you the title of this blog post you would think I don’t like to blog anymore. But the truth is I asked too much from myself.
When I first started blogging 10 years ago, nobody really knew that you could earn money with it. And back then I never thought about it either. Now I am older and I know that blogging is really my thing. Well, writing and being creative is my thing. I have a lot of hobbies and I can write about them all on my own blog. And I know that is it what I am supposed to do. This is my passion. I also think it is great that you can earn money by doing what you love. Life is not about going to your job that you don’t like. There is always a way to turn your hobby/passion into a full-time job.
Numbers and stress
But I started to read more about blogging and how many views you should get before you can work with brands to earn money. And that kind of ruined it for me. Years ago I just uploaded a new blog post whenever I wanted to. Okay, I had so much to say that I wrote every single day. And if I was working with brands I uploaded the blog post on the date we agreed to. But every time I put so much love and passion into my posts, that it did not feel like working at all.
But this year I was pushing myself to get paid opportunities. I had to upload a new blog post at 9 AM (UK time) every single day. So I woke up and realized I still had to finish that blog post before 9 and that gave a lot of stress. Not because I couldn’t do it. Sometimes it was just blocking my creativity. My creativity peaks in the evening.
Another reason why I destroyed it, is because I had to do so many things every day to get better. I have to improve my blog posts, I was focused to get more views, more followers, make better pins for Pinterest. And even though I had tons of inspiration for my blog (still have), I just couldn’t do it. It is hard to explain this feeling, but it is not a good feeling.
Comparing and failing
And when my new posts got 20 views, I was disappointed. I saw on social media that every other blogger was doing well and I had 20 views. But now I realized that 20 views are a lot. That are 20 people (or less?) reading mine blog. Those people are interested in my blog.
And like I said my creativity peaks in the evening, which means I like to write in the evening. But everyone was telling me that I was crazy that I was still working at 10 pm. And I listened to them. And the next day I woke up and I still had to finish that blog post. Sometimes I felt so terrible that I did not post a new blog.
Making blogging fun again
I am going to change a couple things to unblock my creativity. First of all: my new blogs will come online when they are ready. Whether it is 9 am or 9 pm. I love to walk in the morning because that is giving me new inspiration and energy. I can do that now because I don’t have to finish my blog post before 9.
And less pressure. Not comparing myself to other bloggers what they are doing. I am doing great and I am different and so is my blog. I can’t spread positivity if I compare myself to others. It is so easy these days to compare yourself with social media and stuff. Just doing what feels right to me.