This weekend I had one of those moments again that I was feeling stuck. I was feeling like a failure. I had so many doubts about everything and I was just not feeling great. I started to think about where this feeling came from. And then I just realized that I am basically at the same place as a few years ago. I remember at the beginning of the pandemic I said to myself that I will be focusing on myself. But it didn’t take long before I was acting like the old version of me.
I was focused on everything except on myself. I forgot to take care of myself. And I also realized that my life wouldn’t change if I didn’t change. I had to change my habits and start working on myself.
Well, it is now Monday 19th April and it is the first day of the ‘new me’. I have decided to write about this journey because otherwise, I will give up again. Because it is not easy to change yourself and your habits. In this blog post, I will talk about the things I am changing about myself.
Focusing on myself for the next 30 days
Be more active
The old me was very lazy. During the weekend I could spend hours in bed. On a workday, I sat down a lot and barely moved until I had to go to my part-time job. That part-time is just 2.5 hours a day but active.
On Monday 19th April I started with a work-out (the Chloe Ting Hourglass work-out). This is a program of 21 days. Honestly, I can’t remember the last time I exercised for longer than 10-15 minutes.
Stop Binge-eating/unhealthy snacks
At first, I had those moments at that time of the month, which made sense to me. I was okay with that. During that time I needed to eat more food. But not much later I was binge-eating all of the time. I looked at the snacks I now have in the kitchen and most of them are not healthy. And I really have to stop binge-eating, because that is not healthy either.
The new me eats more veggies and fruit. I am going to do some research on healthy snacks I can eat. I still have to eat snacks, especially now I started doing workouts. I need the energy for that. But no more mindless eating in front of the tv.
Be more disciplined/productive
I’ve always wanted to go full-time with my YouTube channel, my blog and my other social media platforms. But I had too many days that I was just not feeling like it. Sometimes you need to take a day off. But it happened way too often that I was thinking: I will do it tomorrow or later and then I never did it again.
So the new me is more disciplined but this doesn’t mean I am going to work on my blog for 100 hours per week. I think I don’t have to. But eventually, I want to publish a blog post (almost) every single day and upload 3 YouTube videos per week.
Meditating and be more mindful
I was feeling stressed way too often and I didn’t really enjoy life anymore. I want to bring that spark back. I am going to meditate again. I will start slow and start with a 5-minute meditation and build it up to 30 minutes. The old me was also somewhere else. Physically I was there, but mentally I was always thinking about something else. But if you do that constantly, You are missing out on life. I want to be more mindful and stop doing 1000 things at the same time and just enjoy life more. This is hopefully the best way to stop overthinking.
Spending less time online
As I said before I wasn’t very disciplined when it came to my blog and YouTube. Instead of working on my dreams, I watched too much Netflix on a daily basis. I also spend a lot of time on my phone. I can say that I am addicted to my phone. I had to check all of the social media every hour, I checked the news way too often. I will keep my Friday movie night but that is it for now. Spending less time is going to be interesting because I realized that I don’t have any other offline hobbies other than reading books.
Always look on the bright side of life
When I am in one of those moods, I was always complaining about everything. And if I was not doing it out loud, then I was just thinking it. But life is so beautiful at the same time. There is always something beautiful/positive in every single situation. I already have a gratitude journal but I haven’t used it in a while, but I will start using it again.
These are the 6 habits I want to work on right now. Join my journey if you want to, so we can do it together.